Can you believe it? I know I can’t…. 7 days til my bliss/nirvana/serenity home is MINE. And then another day til I move in but that’s beside the point… 7 freaking days! And the weird thing is that I feel a little nervous and can’t quite put my finger on why. Definitely excited but didn’t quite expect to be nervous. I’m weird… I know.
Speaking of weird, I’ve started doing a little experiment for the last month or so and the results are really interesting. I’ve always got a song in my head. Always. It’s very rare that there isn’t a tune zinging around in there (Tove Lo – High at the moment) and I’ve started writing down the song that first plays when I wake up. I was curious as to where the song comes from as sometimes it’s something really random (like this morning’s theme from The Love Boat tv show) and other times it’s a song I heard on the radio or mp3 player the day before. So far it’s about 50/50 between the two but the random songs are the ones that I’m more interested in.
Again with the weirdness, but I’m trying to tune in to the messages, hints, phrase words or whatever they are that I get from these songs. And they are turning out to be very useful and insightful. I’m finding the same thing with things that I read although in this day and age with facebook etc it’s not hard to find some daily inspirational as they get posted thick and fast. But some just hit me square in the face. And whether it’s just me reading things into what I hear and read to soothe something that’s going on in my head I don’t know. But I don’t really believe in coincidence. For example, during a particularly negative and irritating day to read a random spammy email and the person has “From now on, practice reframing other people’s negativity as a reminder of how not to be.” ( T. Harv Eker) at the bottom of their email in their signature block. I keep coming across these little things so I’m trying to pay attention.
And just to totally go to Weirdsville population me, I saw The Matrix the other day for the first time. Yep, first time ever and no I have not been living under a rock. I’ve seen clips and snippets over the years and knew the general storyline but haven’t ever watched the full movie and I gotta say it’s a really thought provoking concept. But the line that stuck with me after watching it was when Morpheus says to Neo “I can only show you the door. You’re the one that has to walk through it”. Which kind of brings me full circle in this post. Maybe that’s why I’m nervous. I can’t help feeling I’m on the cusp of something. Not entirely sure what yet but it feels like I’m about to begin. Not a rabbit hole or anything, probably just a brand spanking fresh new chapter in my life. As always, I’ll keep ya posted ;}